Poems by you.

[Minara]

I know that almost all of us here write poetry, so I thought I would start a thread where we can post our poems.

I haven't written one recently, but I feel one brewing...

BBL

Merrick

[Louis]

Love Triangle by Me ..aka.. Louis

It hurts me to see you cry,
And I just figured out why.
It's because there's nothing I can do.
You're with him and he's with you,
But you're my friend and your trust I can't betray,
Yet I can't help feeling this way.
From the beginning I've always been attracted to you,
But this neither one of us knew.
I had my opportunity, but let it pass me by.
He had you and I decided not to try.
Now here we are, and every night I ask... why?
Why did I not try? Why is it in my bed I lie,
And every night thinking of you,
And all the things I could have done, but did not do?
Maybe you were meant to be with him not me,
But I was too scared to even try and see.
So I let you slip away,
By getting myself married that day,
I think that I needed someone to,
Because you had him and he had you.
So now I sit and think about my life,
Think about both you and my wife.
Hope I did the right thing,
By giving her that ring,
By wanting just friendship from you,
Because it was the honourable thing to do.

© 2004

[”¨@ˆÄŽRŽq]

"Words that relate to anger"

It wasn't like this
not wednesday
of course it was different
in a way.
Unexpected.
Sometimes I'm tired
I have chores to do when I'm home
nothing else seem to "piss" me off
except those that have that "tendency"
to.
Today, it is wednesday, the day that I
know have "drama" only this day
It was all fun and games.
I was hot, it was a hot day
dressed in that "boring" shirt, I can't
have my say in it, so its "THE" shirt until
it reaches to friday
then I can do whatever
the hell I want
The pants I wore
why not? its pants nothing more.
The same routine,
over,
over,
and over again.
Now that I'm done with school
I'm home
the only place I'm prisioned to
when I'm free I'll be gone
I won't tell
I won't say
its a secret.
I always know what will happen
yet I don't trust it, for it can change.
Not this time, I had to go.
I had to check out something that I've been
going to for the past five months
every tuesday.
Yes, its a class that I take after I'm done
with school.
Something to keep my "race" alive
to always "remember" it.
Never let no one else see.
I always felt weird now that I'm back.
Its over I'm going home.
it is ALWAYS how it is.
but you just "never" know.
Being asked a question that "irratates"
you, don't you hate it?
especially when parents ask it?
like they are "just" so damn
curious of that "certain"
thing?
That thing, forever echos in your head
repeats non-stop til you break
it burns in your mind, flash backs
and the voice which asked you that.
Also what really hurts is when you just
can't go, even if it is just ONE time
not like I was going to die
I'm doing the opposite
I cry.
I'm PISSED
I'm MAD
damn straight I am, I am.
it isn't fair, why couldn't I have one
who could just let me go, this once?
I mean she did it before, it was different
now this, no, I can't.
well F**** you.
it just hurts, you know F***ing hurts.
I just can't wait to get away from you.
away from you so you won't know where I live
where I breath, where I eat.
either that, I rather just kill myself
though I'm pathetic
on suicidal.
more better to blast the sounds I have
to wake your a** up
I take "revenges" in certain ways
you wouldn't even know
I won't tell you
you just walk in it.
fine, you want to be like this.
just fine with me
the "WONDERFUL" plans I ALWAYS
wanted
dreamed....
it will have to come true ANOTHER year
or century
s**** maybe another millenium.
oh wait, I wouldn't be alive for that.
I wonder who's fault is that?
sometimes I feel like crying madly
punching something so hard
it'll make my knuckles deadly numb
with blood bleeding out non stop
I could not feel
yelling for the whole to know I'm here
that I want it know what "hells" I go
through
what I want to world to hear
or just doing all at once
it'll make me so crazy to
go to a mental hospital
who the f*** cares.
I just want everyone to see
what kind of anger is in me
the balls of emotion that
collects each day
each hour
each month
s*** the years are even worser.
It grows from small to big
the biggest would be a
baseball and still grow
I need to talk to someone else
or I will lose it
music helps
art doesn't do that much
writing is another
Hot shower....thats good too
anything and everything
that will help
me calm down
but the words that relate to anger
is still there.
It'll take time
til those words that once
bled with mad emotion
shine then fade
untill the next moment
I'll be really mad again.

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I forgot why I wrote this poem, but I know that my mom pissed me off, though I don't know why. LOL.

[Minara]

I feel foolish posting these since some of them were originally written as far back as 1993, but here goes. (I will probably amend some of them as I type them, just to refresh them a bit)

DISTANCE Sept 16, 1993

The distance between us grows everyday
The love we once shared gone suddenly astray.

I call out your name, on the blistering wind
As you glance my way, I find in myself sin.

It cannot be measured in mere metres or feet;
It's measured in the soul, and by my every heartbeat.

Driven between us, there is a wedge
To widen the distance and send us over the edge
Into a world of insanity, unending eternal night,
A long and winding tunnel, showing no sliver of light.

But out of nowhere, white light radiantly shines
You are of that beam, everlasting and kind.

Magically, mystically darkness reappears
To eclipse the light's glow and give my eyes tears
Which fall by the dozen, a deep and salty sea
The lightning around us crashes and I continue to plea.

Left lost and alone, bitter and cold
All remnants of you gone, our love growing cold.

I think of you endlessly, all I see is your face
I wish you were with me, out of time and out of space.

The gap that grows between us threatens to seize
You and I both and is like a disease
That withers our hearts, bodies and souls
And obliterates our love without any control.

I can feel I am losing you to another and yet
I can't let you go and give up my debt
Which I must fulfill to you, to make you believe
That my love is not false, that I do not deceive

But I will forsake you, my darling, my sweet
If only to ensure your happiness is complete.

So, once more and again, though not by surprise
The raging wind howls and smothers my cries...

And the distance grows...

(OK I wrote all of it until the "deep and salty sea" verse when I was 14, and I added the last 6 verses tonight...funny how something written 11 years ago still has a lot of relevance now...)
~!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

This one was written a little over a month prior to 'Distance' while I was camping with my parents and became enamored of the campfire while we roasted marshamallows and hot dogs.


INSPIRATION - August 6, 1993

Starting with a spark
Intensity grows and builds into a roaring inferno
Crackling and popping out of control
Flames lick the wood, hungrily, rapidly
Devouring its indifferent prey
Oranges and blues meld to a heated, enraged rainbow
The flames dance wildly
A beautiful, unnatural waltz
The wood burns and turns to ashes and coals
The fire engorges steaidly, the wood glows red
and finally fades to black
More fuel ignites the flames, but only intermittently
And soon the embers fade and the ashes settle
And the fire has died, and with it
My inspiration.

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This one is called "Rain" and it was written one dreary afternoon, about a week before my 17th birthday.

RAIN - March 7, 1996

It creeps in silently, softly rapping at my windowsill
I run out in it, naked if only in my mind's eye
It washes away my unhappiness and my sorrow
A rumble of thunder announces the arrival of the newborn fall
A flash of lightning, blinding in the darkening sky
I feel an unnatural high, rivulets of rain sliding down my cheeks
Steadily pelting on my body, rapidly picking up wonderful force
I dance and sing in it, music above the deafening roar
The cold water enlivens and refreshes me
But soon the rain dies away
Softing rapping on my windowsill
It creeps away silently.
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This next one is not really very verbose or all that stunning lyrically, but I wrote it for my best friend at the time who was going through a rough spot.

THE CONSTANT - April 3, 1996

When the world crumbles at your feet,
I'll be there to lend a hand
When your life is a deserted street
I'll be there to take a stand.

When darkness is your entire life,
I'll be the light to show the way
When you silence cannot be cut by a knife
I'll be your voice, to their dismay.

When nightmares no longer remain in your sleep
I'll be the happy dreams to comfort your mind
When all you want is to break down and weep
I'll be the one who is in your tears entwined.

When on the road of life we may impass,
I'll be there to share the joy
When all hope and love do not last
I'll be there, constant and coy.

TBC Minara

[”¨@ˆÄŽRŽq]

Untitled...

My life is like an open book
its funny how I think
and look

The fact that I let people read
my journal
I'll write forever more, eternal.

Yet I wonder why people don't
wanna get shit off their
chest.
I think that writing therapy
is the best

I read what people write
I see through the eyes

depending on the moods
day or night
sometimes I feel like everything
flies

I wonder to ponder nothing more

I really can't be sure

what I'm writing this made up
poem for

Obviously I'm bored at the moment
and wish someone would be here
at present

So I can relax and chat or a PM
them

to start up the fun again.

*winks*

[Louis]

Velvet Darkness by me aka Louis

In the velvet darkness of the night
I wander from place to place
Until the first rays of morning light
Gently fall upon my face.
But in that blackness I am free
I can think and do anything
I can be just me
A single soul living and dying.
A creature of the night
And with a single kiss
I can free you to
Thats what I long to do in this
Velvet Darkness.


© 2004

[”¨@ˆÄŽRŽq]

My Companion

I've heard of this mysterious
man
it never crossed my mind
that he was immotal
to look at his pale face
and gentle hands
yet he is the type to be
just fathful
for me I'm a mere
human being,
no, a lady who is very delicate.
to have friends that are the
unseen
that come and go, instead of
saying occupy or vaccant
to have the opportunity to
grace this realm while they
are gone
to fill the emptyness with
any song
its strange to find him
sneaking and lurking around
posting here and there
so funny, to see him
hang upside down
I'm cautious yet
my eyes turn a deeper color
"couldn't I play with this
dangerious....vampire?"
I approach with my mind
to see what will happen
if he'll come and sign
is this the end?
nothing has hurt me
I'm not afraid
to be just curious
I wouldn't think he'd fade
slowly I've come to learn
who he is
so gentle, yet different
very fast I declare
my companion at this
it may be affectionate
it may be flirts
but the one thing he'd never
do to me
is hurt
he fully has my trust
and I fully have his
the one temption my soul
awfully wants
is just one kiss

[Petronia]

Lady Malaika I really loved your poem it was beautiful.

Petronia

[Petronia]

Louis said:

Velvet Darkness by me aka Louis

In the velvet darkness of the night
I wander from place to place
Until the first rays of morning light
Gently fall upon my face.
But in that blackness I am free
I can think and do anything
I can be just me
A single soul living and dying.
A creature of the night
And with a single kiss
I can free you to
Thats what I long to do in this
Velvet Darkness.


© 2004

Master Louis your poetry is breath taking it made me feel lonely and happy all at the same time.

Petronia

[”¨@ˆÄŽRŽq]

Petronia said:

Lady Malaika I really loved your poem it was beautiful.

Petronia

aww thanks petronia *winks* if you get "my companion" then you probably know who I'm talking about, if not then, PM so I'll tell you who *winks*

[Minara]

Petronia said:

Master Louis your poetry is breath taking it made me feel lonely and happy all at the same time.

Petronia

Louis certainly has a way with words, on that I will agree, Petronia.

I miss my Louis. =( And my fair and beautiful Lestat =(

Min

[”¨@ˆÄŽRŽq]

It's really funny when I return to my other realm as a Celestial Elf Queen, course no one knows what I'm talking about.

though its funny that I actually have poems from will and nathan, also my other friends as well. I'm shocked to learn that I wrote some poems too. Glad to find them while my realm is continuing to roam in this internet world *giggles*

Straightening My Thick n' Wild Hair

I will be honest
and truthful
I DO have thick hair
the thickest hair ever
Because its a culture trait
which I'll never hate
but sometimes I do debate
My thick n' wild hair
which to me relates
Dark brown
covers half
the rest is my old dye
the texture of it
is.........thick, heavy, hot
and deadly
having a natural wave or
wavyness in it
making it look very wild-ness
my hair is my hair
the color of it, I care
friends love my hair
its just my hair
I know it represents you
and your face
also you can style it
do whatever you want
with it
I mean hair will always
be there
it makes itself scared
hair does alot of
things
my hair is just wild
and thick
and dark brown
and can be in many styles
hair..........is just hair.

©KP

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I wrote this poem like a year ago, when I was in 10th grade, strange how time flies *winks*

[spike]

Stand Alone

Stray into the darkness
A light shattered in mere essence of time and memory
Lust for pain, but everything is so numb
Desire for death feeds off your own flesh, overwhelming desires
Blood of the innocent cascades like water into the cold night air

Stray into the black backdrop of nothingness
Death gripping veins, overwhelming life
When there is nothing left, I will still be
In this cold world, I stand alone.

{{I know, I know, It's short!!}}

[spike]

Here's a twisted little love poem I came up with when I was angry.

-Love is illness, but not with you. It's perfect, I love you
-Fly away with me and join the stars in the sky
-Death is scary but life is scarier but as long as your next to me I can face my fears

Isolation Thirst {{page 1}}

Alone in the far corners of a world of dreams
I listen to the plaintive whisper...
of sweet memories with wings clipped
With the time fluttering a sedate, soothing rythim
Through the cool flesh sliding so namelessly familiar over this landscape of loose translation
SHe kisses me, slowly forces herself through me
My trembling assembles a tacit myth
This is of signifigance.

We move in lasting time
Resting a scence of desperate secrecy
Then... somewhere far below us, the strangers, the rest of them, begin to stir
I need not ask she stay until I forget
And we are laughing--

The day has come to soon
And we are sobbing
This is a strange clutch
So little time to learn so much--

Isolation Thirst {{page 2}}

As if no other night could bring such a futile fleeting touch
And because she sighs,
And because she sings
as she becomes my pain--
I must steal the night again...

{{With my handwriting that first part really did take up a whole page}}

[”¨@ˆÄŽRŽq]

Lost

I just got ....lost
from reading
I just got ....sad
from thinking
I just got ....confused
for pretending
because I felt that
I was used at the time

but I'm just dreaming
nothing happened
there is none to prove it

I'm running away
I'm fleeing
anywhere
that you can't see me

I just got ....lost
why am I leaving?
in my mind
everything is decieving
I need my friend
its something thats
relieving

I'm hurt
no one believes me

I'm not over doing
on the words that would relate
to it
so hurtful that I'm alone

badly hurt that it changes in my tone
I wear a mask
to hide ....msyelf
I try to change....
to hide ....the pain

I can't do that
its not my power to force
I can't touch
where it lays, can't pinpoint
the source

who am I?
I just got ...lost

who am I?
It just got ...worse

to forget this...
won't remember
burn what I know in my head
to clear my eyes
and the nicest thoughts you'd say
that start with "I's"

myself has to be strong
just think "support"
should it be wrong?
just think "friend"
and when its solved

I can finally say

"The End"

I just got ....so lost
I'm confused
I just got ....depressed
look, myself is a mess
I just got ....jealous
nothing serious
I just got ....empty
nothing is tempting.....

not anymore.

the dark wants to embrace me
to push my problems away and
tilts my face to look at me
to tell me to forget and move on
to be there for me
because I'm the only one

I still remain ....lost

I have to deal with it

If something you should want
so much
yet it can't touch your finger tips
and flies off..

then let it go

let it go...

lost....

I just got ....lost

the dark has become the darkness
accepting me, my fate and everything
to decide that I'll change
what was so late, is now gone
I still think I'm lost
but will continue on.....

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